You're Living in Your Own Private Idaho

In a little more than a week, I leave for Germany. I had a nightmare last night that I missed my flight, because I was sitting in the airport and did not realize it was passed the time that my flight left. I really do not need any more anxiety about my trip. I feel like with exams it was hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I really am leaving... I already had so much on my mind about finals and Christmas.
Now since I have a little down time, I feel all of these emotions about leaving. I am scared and I wish I could clone myself so I could enjoy the best of both worlds. But, I know this is probably like an opportunity of a lifetime and I will regret not going for the rest of my life. So I think that means that I have to go...I am just so scared of being disconnected from all of the people I love. I have a total fear of being alone or at least feeling alone.

Meyellow

It is summer. I am reading a book called Heart-Shaped Box. I'm looking for a freaking job in Kalamazoo, Michigan with no luck...(only call-backs have been for people seeking a non-temporary worker). My classes ended on a good note...I really miss school with the routine everyday and knowing what to do with myself. I miss everyone. I want to be in 3 places at once. I will be missing my friends graduation party tomorrow and I think it may be the last time I will get to see him so it sucks... I had one of the best times ever with Leslie when I came home. I also had a garage sale with my parents to gain some money but only made $27...I'm broke...lame...
I need a freaking miracle

They call her love love love love love

Today I am relaxing listening to the song from the Nivea commercial "She is Love" - Parachute VA. It's a beautiful song.


I'm on Spring Break and enjoying it thoroughly. I started it well by getting a top 6 score on my midterm for my Emily Dickinson class and doing well on my German oral exam. Since I've been home I have done enough to fill one week. I have spent lots of time with my boyfriend, I've had one of the best nights out in a long time , spent time with my sister and I have gone on a couple walks that were beautiful.
Last night I saw the movie Shopaholic it was a pretty cute movie . It was a little predictable but it's one of those movies. This week I have to study for a German History midterm that scares me a bit. I'm not really strong in knowing who some of the important players before WWII are, but I will be fine.
My friend from Ohio is coming up to see me for awhile which should be fun. I'm going to take her to the Spotted Cow because that has always been one of our goals, but when she is here we never accomplish it. I think we are going to try to plan something special to do but I'm not sure yet.


I cannot believe it is only 2 months until school is over. I'm really excited for the Summer. I will be moving to Kalamazoo the second week of May. I have already applied for some jobs in Kalamazoo, so I am looking forward to hearing back from them. Until then, I will be focusing on school. I hope time flies.

They should just fffffade away...

I haven't typed on here in a long long long time. I figured it was time. I'm guessing something has had to of happened since the last time I posted. This semester has been pretty smooth. I haven't had a lot to do for classes, but this is definitely the quiet before the storm because I know that I have 2 ten page papers all do this upcoming month and it's just going to be a hoot.
I'm totally in love with Emily Dickinson she just rocks as a poet. My teacher for the class is an awesome guy so it makes it easier to like the class. I cannot believe Emily did not have anyone that taught her how to write and that she really did not even have a lot of time to write it was just a hobby of hers. She was way before her time.
That was just a side note about my favorite class. But my life is going as well as it could be. Everything just feels right. I'm with peace with a lot of things and I feel like I've grown a lot since last year.