For God Sake Dear

So I am up...and bored. It's 3:15AM and I cannot sleep. I start training for my waitressing job tomorrow. I am really happy to finally have a job. I am content and not looking forward to the summer ending. That is all.

Lying in bed just like Brian Wilson dead

So much has happened since my last blog. Koln was awesome. I never thought I would be going to Karneval ever in my life! I dressed as a cat and the parades were amazing. I have been in Luneburg for almost 3 months...CRAZY! I miss my family, boyfriend, friends and my cat soooooooo much! It has helped that 4 weeks ago James came to visit me for a week. During that week I still have school, but we managed to go to multiple museums, a hockey game, went out with friends, saw Alice and Wonderland, went to the top of the water tower and lots of other things. It was honestly the best week of my life. I almost died when I saw him at the airport and almost died when I had to leave him at the airport.
The week after James came I had Spring Break. Two of my friends and I decided to go to Istanbul, Turkey. It was incredibly exciting for me since I had done two reports on Turkey, my mom had lived there before and my aunt and uncle have a place in Turkey. So I was excited to visit a place that I have heard about my whole life.
We saw mosques, we went to a Turkish bath, hung out with some really great locals and people from our hostel, had really good food, saw a belly dancing dinner show, saw the Whirling Dervishes and went to two sultan palaces. We flew into the Asian side of Turkey and stayed in the European side. So now I have another continent to add to my list :).
When I got back I started to get a really bad cold and I am still trying to get over it. Tomorrow I begin the highest level of German. So time should just get even more intense.

In a big country dreams stay with you like a lovers voice

So apparently I should have something blog-worthy since I am living in a different country..etc. It has been almost a month that I have been in Germany. Time has flown by, I do not believe that it is even possible that I have been here this long. Well...where to start? I got here on January 7th at about 3pm. I met my buddy (Inga), she helps me with different things like everything one needs to know about Luneburg- grocery stores, cool places to hang out, cheap baked goods etc...After we met up we went to the place where I am staying for 4 months.
We got on a bus with my two pieces of luggage. We got off the bus like 10 minutes later and walked my luggage through the snow to an old style Germany house. The last thing Inga said before we got to the door was "are you nervous" I told her not really and we knocked on the door to the house. My host mom answered and said (in German) "come on in and take your shoes off. Today we will use English, but from tomorrow on, only German". I was a bit intimidated by this, but I agreed. We sat down in the dining room and went over leases and such with my buddy. We had a really good herbal tea with cookies.
The first two nights I ate dinner with my host family. They cooked Indian style food both times, which tasted great. I had orientation Friday and Saturday of that week, so my time was spent going to the school for hours and then coming home and going to bed. The second day I was here (Friday) my host family had a friend from London (Andrew) come and visit for a few days. He was really nice and I asked him about a whole bunch of popular cultural things like "Keeping up Appearances" and "Rocky Horror Picture Show". He had a really good sense of humor and was fun to talk to. My host mom, Andrew and I went to brunch that Sunday at a wonderful restaurant. They had tons to pick from, we sat around for about 4 hours eating and talking.
The first week of school was a bit stressful because we had a placement exam and we were placed into our levels. The Saturday of our first week the USAC program took us on a trip to Hamburg. We went to the Harbor and rode on a ferry. We also went to a church ruin tower that is a memorial of the destruction war can cause. Later that evening we went to dinner at this really cool restaurant that had amazing Salmon.
Since this time I have gone to my first German soccer game, the hamburg art museum, hamburg history museum, the U-Boot museum and The Dungeon (a haunted house/history/comedy museum). This week we are planning to go to Hamburg on Wednesday to see Madame Butterfly. I hope it works out, I have always wanted to see an Opera in Germany. We will be going in two weeks on a 3 night stay in Koln for Carnival. That is all for now...I am sure I missed important things, but for now... bis spaeter

You're Living in Your Own Private Idaho

In a little more than a week, I leave for Germany. I had a nightmare last night that I missed my flight, because I was sitting in the airport and did not realize it was passed the time that my flight left. I really do not need any more anxiety about my trip. I feel like with exams it was hard to get my head wrapped around the idea that I really am leaving... I already had so much on my mind about finals and Christmas.
Now since I have a little down time, I feel all of these emotions about leaving. I am scared and I wish I could clone myself so I could enjoy the best of both worlds. But, I know this is probably like an opportunity of a lifetime and I will regret not going for the rest of my life. So I think that means that I have to go...I am just so scared of being disconnected from all of the people I love. I have a total fear of being alone or at least feeling alone.

Meyellow

It is summer. I am reading a book called Heart-Shaped Box. I'm looking for a freaking job in Kalamazoo, Michigan with no luck...(only call-backs have been for people seeking a non-temporary worker). My classes ended on a good note...I really miss school with the routine everyday and knowing what to do with myself. I miss everyone. I want to be in 3 places at once. I will be missing my friends graduation party tomorrow and I think it may be the last time I will get to see him so it sucks... I had one of the best times ever with Leslie when I came home. I also had a garage sale with my parents to gain some money but only made $27...I'm broke...lame...
I need a freaking miracle

They call her love love love love love

Today I am relaxing listening to the song from the Nivea commercial "She is Love" - Parachute VA. It's a beautiful song.


I'm on Spring Break and enjoying it thoroughly. I started it well by getting a top 6 score on my midterm for my Emily Dickinson class and doing well on my German oral exam. Since I've been home I have done enough to fill one week. I have spent lots of time with my boyfriend, I've had one of the best nights out in a long time , spent time with my sister and I have gone on a couple walks that were beautiful.
Last night I saw the movie Shopaholic it was a pretty cute movie . It was a little predictable but it's one of those movies. This week I have to study for a German History midterm that scares me a bit. I'm not really strong in knowing who some of the important players before WWII are, but I will be fine.
My friend from Ohio is coming up to see me for awhile which should be fun. I'm going to take her to the Spotted Cow because that has always been one of our goals, but when she is here we never accomplish it. I think we are going to try to plan something special to do but I'm not sure yet.


I cannot believe it is only 2 months until school is over. I'm really excited for the Summer. I will be moving to Kalamazoo the second week of May. I have already applied for some jobs in Kalamazoo, so I am looking forward to hearing back from them. Until then, I will be focusing on school. I hope time flies.

They should just fffffade away...

I haven't typed on here in a long long long time. I figured it was time. I'm guessing something has had to of happened since the last time I posted. This semester has been pretty smooth. I haven't had a lot to do for classes, but this is definitely the quiet before the storm because I know that I have 2 ten page papers all do this upcoming month and it's just going to be a hoot.
I'm totally in love with Emily Dickinson she just rocks as a poet. My teacher for the class is an awesome guy so it makes it easier to like the class. I cannot believe Emily did not have anyone that taught her how to write and that she really did not even have a lot of time to write it was just a hobby of hers. She was way before her time.
That was just a side note about my favorite class. But my life is going as well as it could be. Everything just feels right. I'm with peace with a lot of things and I feel like I've grown a lot since last year.